I'm talking about those moments when we question our path.
There are a lot of unschooling blogs out there, including this one. On those blogs and on this one, you will find lots of posts telling exciting, amazing or "educational" things that unschoolers do. It is often quite impressive and, when I read those other blogs or posts by other unschoolers on Facebook, I am often in awe. The thing is, people might easily have that same feeling when reading my blog and I'm the one having a moment.
Recently, I have been going through a bit of a worry time. All unschoolers go through it at one time or another. It is completely normal. Truly! During those moments, reading about all the amazing things that others are doing feeds into the doubts about whether unschooling is "working". In my rational brain, I know that I'm being silly, but still doubts creep in. I am a bit stuck there lately.
I have these (irrational) fears that Princess isn't learning anything, or isn't learning what she "needs" to learn. It's really all so silly. After all, she is only 8! I'm 47 and I'm still learning...and the majority of the things I learned in school, I've forgotten!! Then there's the girl who unschooled and didn't learn any of the higher maths until she found her passion and found out that in order to pursue her degree, she needed all those higher maths...so she learned it all...in 6 months. Yes, all.
I spoke to an unschooling friend the other day and she helped me get a little clarity. She pointed out that, often times, what people choose to post about are little snippets in time that read a lot more elaborately than they likely are in actuality. This did help to shift my current view and put my mild panic at ease, at least a bit. Still, I am in the moment of feeling uncertain. After sharing, my dear friend suggested that I break outside the norm and share these not so exciting moments.
I have to wonder if this will get boring, but I suppose that's a matter of perspective. If there are other unschoolers in my situation, perhaps this might help them to not feel so alone. The other thought is that if I look at Princess' days, I may find things that I'm missing. Maybe I have something to learn from all of this.
Learning happens all the time, it can't be helped. My hope is that posting more often about "nothing" will help me and others see things more clearly. It just takes faith and trust (and a little pixie dust...sorry, couldn't help it ;)
I hope you'll join me.